Endosymbiotic

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there." -Bob Marley

ch ch ch changes... (turn and face the strain)

David Bowie is always the shit.


So... Changes, things are a changin, and I dont know if I should be happy, excited, worried.. or what.

My roommate gave me the "heads up" shes moving out next month to move to Bellingham, thats cool. I understand.. Mount Vernon is lame sauce.. But in the events of her moving, its bringing forth the chance that I might actually have to move myself.

Before Ginny lived with me I was paying the rent on my own, but times are tough son, and I dont have as much cash now and I did then. Soo... what to do, what to do.
Move into another house.. doubt it, find another roommate... looking.. move back to Seattle, possibly..
Move in with Lr.. eee...  I asked him about it and he laughed at me because I made a list of pros and cons of living together. He says I'm OCD, I say I'm smart to think it through first. I've never lived with a man besides my dad.. this could get interesting. I mean in all actuality we basically live together, I've spent the night at my house like once in the last 2 months.. but I honestly LOVE my house, I dont even want to think about packing shit up, putting stuff in storage and moving things up those god awful stairs at lrs.. could be a lot of fun though. I mean in all reality, if I lived with him I'd be purely saving money every month.. and I could really be doing a lot of stuff I want to be doing that I havent been.. like going snowboarding, making art and music... all those things are so much easier when you dont have to worry about money as much. I can also start saving to get a nice brand new car, that like never breaks down :)

Who knows. Only time will tell what new things will come my way. I hope for the best though, because if I move out of my house and shit turns shitty I will be VERY upset.

Currently Spinning:

Some Old Nine Inch Nails..

Mars Volta {De-Loused in the Comatorium}

Sonic Youth Vinyl {Goo}

Arcade Fire {Funeral}

Morphine {The Night}

Lyrics I adore:

"The Line Begins To Blur"

There are things that I said I would never do
There are fears that I cannot believe have come true
For my soul is too sick and too little and too late
And my self I have grown to weary to hate

The more I stay in here
The more it's not so clear
The more I stay in here
The more I disappear
As far as I have gone
I knew what side I'm on
But now I'm not so sure
The line begins to blur

Is there somebody on top of me?
I don't know I don't know
Isn't anybody stopping me?
I don't know I don't know
Well I'm trying to hold my breath
I don't know I don't know
Just how far down can I go?
I don't know I don't know I don't know

As I lie here and stare
The fabric starts to tear
It's far beyond repair
And I don't really care
As far as I have gone
I knew what side I'm on
But now I'm not so sure
The line begins to blur