Laura Gif

Winter

School Building in Sumner, WA

Old Decrepit Barn in Bonney Lake, WA

  My little cousin Dylan. Hes a freaking HAM

 My gorgeous little sister Madeline Jane

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Upon looking through my blog, I noticed that I haven't blogged since before I moved.. geez I haven't blogged in forever.. Im a trader and switched to Tumblr a while back, but realistically haven't blogged and written anything in months, and months.. Mainly just photos. You can always have a looksie . So where to start.. I guess where I left off. So I infact moved.. at first I was super excited about it, but over time I've become less "thrilled" about the situation, you dont realize how much you enjoy living alone until you dont anymore. Dont get me wrong I love lr, and love being around him, but god damn the boy is lazy as all get up, often boring, and is always watching porn while Im at friggen work.. LOVELY!!!! fuckin at least wait to watch porn until I get home. This summer was crap, but at least its leading into a lovely fall full of rad concerts, and making fires and catching up on a lot of books.. Im litterally in the middle of like 10 books.. If you have an oppurtunity write me, tell me more books, Im a book hoarder and need more :)

Recently Finished Reading:

• 120 Days of Sodom -- Marquis De Sade (love him and ALWAYS will)
• The Secret
• Witchcraft - A Beginner’s Guide -- Teresa Moorey
• Rancid Aluminum
• The Lucifer Effect -- Philip Zimbardo.
• Cocaine Nation -- Tom Feiling
• Voodoo Science -- Robert l.Pale
• The Bell Jar -- Sylvia Plath
• Fight Club -- Chuck Palahniuk
• The Virgin Suicides -- Jeffery Eugenides

Aside from my book addictions and many other addictions, I've been cooking TONS of glorious foods and goodies, also been making a lot of food and goodies involving Mary Jane and all her glorious glorious-ness. Made some goo balls a week or 2 ago, made some fan-tabulous peanut butter cookies, fully loaded and guaranteed to put you into the couch for a nap. Over the summer we went on a TON of fishing trips and over night stays on the boat.. my favorite trip was HANDS down our extended stay in Blakely Island, the creepy seemingly haunted school was my favorite!!! As Well as the cute little miniature island community that's totally private. You gotta know someone to come and hang on this island, and its So rad.

  Definitelyhad a killer time getting a private tour from Rick and Norma.. the care takers on the south part of the island. They're so humble, we love them so much..

Hmmmmmm... What else is new?? Gosh I feel likes its been so long since I blogged I dont even know what the hell I've even been up to.. Books, baking, treaveling.. Concerts.. HMMMM!!! Oh yes, how could I forget.. blogger always used to be updated with my Current Listenings.. I've boughten a TON of vinyl lately.. so much that I havent even opened the majority of them because I get soo hooked on an album I listen to it every day for months.

Currently Spinning:

• Pj Harvey (of coarse, shes my go to girl) Albums: Uh huh Her, 4-demos, A place called home, Rid of Me
• Death in Vegas -- Contino Sessions
• Arcade Fire -- The Suburbs (Im FUCKING obsessed with this album, I cant and wont stop listening to it)
• Jose Gonzalez -- In our nature
• Nada Surf -- Lets Go (fav. song Killians Red)
• Muse -- Super Massive Black hole (god I love this album)
• Also been listening to a ton of classical piano.. I love it at this time of the year.

Maybe my life is friggen boring?? Am I boring You?? I boring my damn self!!
Ill cut to the chase, Im excited for fall/autumn.. I excited for crap weather and lazing around and baking food and baking my brain, and concerts, and hoodies, and wool hats and socks, and SNOWBOARDING.. how could I forget that its soon enough going to be snowboarding season.. I got a new board last winter and Im more then stoked to use it this year as well as a new jacket.. Holy shit snowboarding season = birthday season for me; Im gonna be 24 this year. Im getting so old.. shit shit shit, that sucks.. getting older sucks, being broke sucks, living with boys sucks.. end blog.

LOVES!

I cant Stop listening to this Album, Im OBSESSED

Photo Project: DARKNESS

Photo Project: REFLECTIONS

Photo Project: EARTH

Photo Project: LINES

Photo Project : RED

my life is boring, I need a change

Rock out with your pussy out

Endosymbiotic

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there." -Bob Marley

ch ch ch changes... (turn and face the strain)

David Bowie is always the shit.


So... Changes, things are a changin, and I dont know if I should be happy, excited, worried.. or what.

My roommate gave me the "heads up" shes moving out next month to move to Bellingham, thats cool. I understand.. Mount Vernon is lame sauce.. But in the events of her moving, its bringing forth the chance that I might actually have to move myself.

Before Ginny lived with me I was paying the rent on my own, but times are tough son, and I dont have as much cash now and I did then. Soo... what to do, what to do.
Move into another house.. doubt it, find another roommate... looking.. move back to Seattle, possibly..
Move in with Lr.. eee...  I asked him about it and he laughed at me because I made a list of pros and cons of living together. He says I'm OCD, I say I'm smart to think it through first. I've never lived with a man besides my dad.. this could get interesting. I mean in all actuality we basically live together, I've spent the night at my house like once in the last 2 months.. but I honestly LOVE my house, I dont even want to think about packing shit up, putting stuff in storage and moving things up those god awful stairs at lrs.. could be a lot of fun though. I mean in all reality, if I lived with him I'd be purely saving money every month.. and I could really be doing a lot of stuff I want to be doing that I havent been.. like going snowboarding, making art and music... all those things are so much easier when you dont have to worry about money as much. I can also start saving to get a nice brand new car, that like never breaks down :)

Who knows. Only time will tell what new things will come my way. I hope for the best though, because if I move out of my house and shit turns shitty I will be VERY upset.

Currently Spinning:

Some Old Nine Inch Nails..

Mars Volta {De-Loused in the Comatorium}

Sonic Youth Vinyl {Goo}

Arcade Fire {Funeral}

Morphine {The Night}

Lyrics I adore:

"The Line Begins To Blur"

There are things that I said I would never do
There are fears that I cannot believe have come true
For my soul is too sick and too little and too late
And my self I have grown to weary to hate

The more I stay in here
The more it's not so clear
The more I stay in here
The more I disappear
As far as I have gone
I knew what side I'm on
But now I'm not so sure
The line begins to blur

Is there somebody on top of me?
I don't know I don't know
Isn't anybody stopping me?
I don't know I don't know
Well I'm trying to hold my breath
I don't know I don't know
Just how far down can I go?
I don't know I don't know I don't know

As I lie here and stare
The fabric starts to tear
It's far beyond repair
And I don't really care
As far as I have gone
I knew what side I'm on
But now I'm not so sure
The line begins to blur

Wind, wind, take me away.

Its been so incredibly windy lately I have been worried my house is going to pull a Wizard of Oz and lift off the ground and take me away somewhere.... doubt it, but its fun to live in a fantasy from time to time.

Speaking of Wind.. You should check Highland Wind and Solar... they build wind towers, they install solar pannels, and they make the Valley and the states a little greener. and Lr works for them.. So in my book they're cool.

SOOOO Many people have been contacting me about doing their photos for weddings, for Christmas, for parties.. its kind of insane. I havent been charging anyone anything, but now Im raising for $0.00 to at least like $50-100.00 for my time in organization and editing. People are crazy.. but its cool; i'll "shoot" you. Currently Im planning to take photos of : Andrea, Jessica, Maegan, Stevie, Kym, Kylee, Wendy, And my grandmoms family.. should be busy photo opping and editing for the next month or so.
I wish I had someone like me to shoot my SG photos.
Maybe I can get really good at using a timer.
I'll have to look into that one. It'd be pretty dope to be my own photographer.

I found the raddest spot to buy guaged earings. Omerica Organic they sell the sickest jewelry, belt buckles, and much more. I love them, and recently purchased a pair. Set me back $85.00 but totally worth it.

Do you ever feel like sometimes you're staring down the barrel of a gun?? I often do. and I often wonder why. My life is the shit, I have an amazing person that I care about, I have a decent job, a nice house, money in the bank, food in the cupboards, gas in my shitty little car. Why do I make my self feel like life is the shits so often? I'll figure it out, sometimes I can be a drama queen. 

Onto a lighter note. I went to the Great Wolf Lodge this weekend. Had a total blast with Lowries Family. No but really, it was an awesome time, and the "Howlin Tornado" is the shizzle nizzle.. it litterlly makes your balls go into your stomach.. if you have balls.

I love buying Christmas presents.

For everyone, including MYSELF.

Tis the season to buy shit when you shouldnt.. Love it, and I LOVE these:

I would Normally NEVER ask for or want Jewelry. But I realllllly love pearls, and I reallllly like this ring.

I've been drinking a ton of tea, reading alot of books, and sleeping even more! I love wood stove fires, and books in the winter time.

Mt. Baker opened today. I wish I could have skipped work, and drove up and boarded. Sunday = Funday. Hopefully!

I've once again started readying Memoirs of a Geisha, I've read it like 4 times, its still one of my favorite books ever. Tonight Im going to bake some Banana Creme Brulee.. shall be fantastic.

Busy Bee

Been Super busy working a weird schedule filling in for a girl at work on vacation.
I've done a few photos for Kylee's Engagement, and Jessica's Pregnancy photos.

I've been working on a few differnet concepts for my Suicide Girls photosets.

1. Mt. Baker/Spacecraft Theme, shall be sweet spacecraft sticker covered nipples mmmkay.

2. Shotgun Taxidermy Theme (using some of Lr's dead animals and some farmer plaid)

3. White girl Black Horse Grey Sky. (awesome idea from Gina in Spindle) totally stealing this idea and fancying it up with a black cinch corset, and my beautiful and discontinued weathered leather, black nine west cowgirl boots)
4. The 3 billy goats gruff, involving the troll under the fremont bridge in Seattle. and a blowup goat. (this one is going to be fun, and hilarious)

Ive been baking and cooking like a mad women storing up for winter, and putting my special man into hibernation. Tonight its pumpkin soufle' shall be amazing.
Tis the season for Casseroles, meat loafs, sweet breads, and teas/ciders/hot chocolates.

Im incredibly excited and looking forward to Halloween.

My girl Leah O'Sullivan, kick ass peircer, and tattooing apprectice is going to paint my face up all Dia de los Muertos Sugar Skull style kinda Sylvia Ji like.. Cant decide which one.. maybe a combo of both.

Currently Spinning:

Muse {Absolution} and I fucking love it!

Skunk Anansie {Post Orgasmic Chill}

Radiohead {Amnesiac}

Nirvana {Discography} Marigold is on repeat.

and oh yeah, follow me on Twitter.

www.twitter.com/sjlaudanum

AND... Check out the new never heard Deftones.. that I Of Coarse heard, when I saw them in Portland on the 13th. it was super sick, and once Again... Chino Moreno rocks my world. "Rocket Skates"

You Shut Your Mouth/ How Can You Say/ I Go About Things The Wrong Way

What a week.

I saw Spindle, They covered Garbage's #1 Crush, which I LOVED, and caught on my video camera.  I lost 3 lbs (and I dont know how because I have been eating so much thai food you'd think I was pregnant and having cravings but Im totally not.) I got accepted to Suicide Girls. SpaceCraft Seattle is hooking me up with a ton of free sick gear for my first photoset @ Mt.Baker. You Should REALLY check out spacecraft their art and clothing and hats are amazing. I stretched my ears from 7/16 back to 1/2" and doing it for the 2nd time hurt ALOT worse. My ears are burning as I blog.

I finallllllllly got some new glasses, I've been sad ever since the day my eyesonfremont glasses fell off my face when I was drunk getting on my boat when I still lived in Seattle. I'll always have a special place in my heart for those $600 glasses.

I took the engagement photos yesterday at my farm house for Kylee and Justins Engagement photo thats going to be in the newspaper. The one I think I liked the best is super cute and since we took the photos at my farm house it looks real rustic. But Jesus Christ I had to watch them make up for like 10 minutes to get the "right kiss picture" barf.

I love this time of the year when the leaves are changing and its super cold at night. The only thing that I really really dont like is the waking up in the morning early part where you have to defrost your car, but yet it really never defrosts so you end up driving in the cold ass foggy car anyways. That sucks.

I've been buying alot of new records. I got an awesome Sleater-Kinney vinyl in the mail yesterday, and a few Joy Divisions last week. I've got to ask.. WHY ARE RECORDS SO EXPENSIVE? I've spent hundreds and hundreds ever since I got my free record player..  I have invisions of cheap records at second hands stores but the only records I ever find there are Barbara Streisand, and Gospel, and Old childrens books. Im kinda down with the old books, but no gospel please and thank you.

And I got a super cool flash baby for the D80. Im going to use it when I go to Portland on the 13.

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Currently Spinning:

A LOT of Cat Power

Nick Cave {Abattoir Blues}

Clint Mansell {The Fountain}

Morrissey {Years of Refusal}

Dead Mans Bones (This is Ryan Gosslings new band, And I like it alot. They'll be in Seattle on the 23rd of Oct. and I am going to try them out)

Charmed for a while but not forever

I haven't blogged in a while, I guess I have been busy or something. Or my Clutch in my car might have gone out, and so all my energy was put towards figuring out how to get that fixed without a lot of money.

Today, is one of those days, maybe ones of those weeks actually where you are like Hi, my name is Whoa, and I feel all terrible for myself, but yet I havent really done anything to change it.

Yeah, this weeks that week.

Do you ever feel like you reallly reallllllly reallllllllly have something thats bothering you, and for whatever reason this thing gets like pushed off to the side, or shit gets better for a minute so you kinda forget about it, but then something else happens and it like cuts the wound a little deeper, and it hurts a little more because its already a sorta-healed wound? Thats the way I feel.  I feel like there is some stuff thats really fucking bothering me, and I cant talk about it because I know what will happen if I do. And to completely avoid that, I just think about it, and after time.. thinking about it drives you fucking crazy.
This week has been made up of wine, weed, xanex, and valium, and a fucking car with a broken clutch.
yeah yeah, im thankful I've got a house, and a job.. (I'm living the fucking dream right) but sometimes why cant people realize whats right in the fuckin stupid faces, and buck the fuck up and claim whats theirs, and love it, and appreciate it, and do what people do when they live in the real fucking world with real fucking people with feelings (sorry for all the f bombs)

Is it really better out there somewhere doing others things, with other people.. I think right here is the place to be, and Im living it up.

Cheers to making me feel let a wet fucking blanket, on a sunny fucking day that I was throughly enjoying until you slapped me across the face and made me open my eyes to what  I was REALLY looking at all along. Bravo Buddy, Bra-fucking-Vo.

Words of wisdom:
If there is something you care about, Tell it or them now. right now, today. Everyday.
If you have money, dont be a tidewod, spend it sometimes.

And if you have a good person in front of you that loves you. hold on to them pretty darn tight, or they might just float right the fuck away, and be like boooo ya, shoulda held on tighter bitch. And you'll probably regret it and feel like a schmuck bucket, and realized the best thing you had in your life, YOU let Go.

Is This Desire?

Didnt get to go to bumbershoot like I have been raving about for weeks.

Bummed about that.

Snuck away to Westport though.

More pics to post soon..

It was a nice long 4 day weekend, and I was wondering when it was going to end. The boy is back in Portland til Friday evening. Saturday is the company pig roast. Super stoked about beer, pig, and bands in Alger.. Who'd a thunk it.

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Currently Spinning:

A LOT OF DEFTONES

Ego Likeness {Alvary}

Kidney Thieves {Placebo}

Coldplay {Violet Hill}

Sonic Youth {Rather Ripped}

Short and Sweet

This week will hopefully fly by, and this weekend should be a freakin ball.

I have Friday thru Monday off, and Sunday and Monday are fully dedicated to Bumbershoot and all its Glory.

I still cant decide whether I want to spend Friday and Saturday home, In Portland, or in Carlton again with the gay boys.

No matter what I do, It will be a blast, and I am really looking forward to the long weekend. Kinda like a mini-vacation but not.

Super Duper Stoked about Metric, The Yeah Yeah Yeahs, and The Devil Makes Three.

Drewy boy borrowed my 1970's TLR that I posted pics from in my last blog.  Im praying to god that I get a killer shot of Karen O rockin it sick.. and Emily Haines (my lesbian love, if I were a lesbian) on my camera.. gotta stop a Glaziers and pick up a bigger lense since I only have a 55mm on the D8; and its mainly for portraits and what not.. Although, I am REALLY looking forward to using the 55mm, I need something larger for BumberShoot. If I can Afford it, I am going to try to rent a wide angle lense, if not maybe my Uncle Tony will let me borrow one of his.

This weekend should Rock me back a notch. Cant wait to See Kristen, Angie, Leah's, Allie, Mike (haha, Allie went before Mike.. ) My baby cousin Dylan. Tony, Sarah, this should be a good weekend, Planning on dropping my car in w. Seattle and bussin it this weekend like old school.

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Currently Spinning:

ALOT of RadioHead

Simon Wilcox {Too Pretty}

Au Revior Simone {Sad Song}

SwitchBlade Symphony {Funnel}